September 2010
6:17 AM- nothing beats messages like this
Had another breakdown last night after I talked to my doctor- just another thing for my boyfriend to deal with. All I could get out through tears was that I was nervous he wouldn’t feel the same for me/wouldn’t think I was sexy/that I’m screwing everything up. He completely calmed me down, and then I woke up to this 7 message long text:
“I’m really, REALLY lucky to...
Totally out of sorts.
I have been slowly losing it. Last night it finally hit me that everyday I’m in a routine. I go to work usually from 830 to 5 or 9 to 530, come home with my back throbbing per usual, find something to eat for dinner, craft with my roomie because I love her, and then lie in bed until I fall asleep. Then I do the exact same thing 5 days in a row. I randomly started crying yesterday and tonight...
It literally never ends.
As if I need more body issues than I already have, another appointment sends me spiraling back when all I want is to get rid of all my insecurities, skin issues, marks, everything. “Wait another 4 months, it should get better” <—I’ve been waiting 4 years. I’ve heard this multiple times. And now a new problem, with the same “resolution” of waiting?
“Cause I came here with a load
and it feels so much lighter since I met you”
“I could never love again,
So much as I love you.
Where you end, where I begin,...”
My first day at my new job
A preschooler adorable little girl comes up to me within my first 10 minutes and says “Can I hold your hand? Because I love you.”
So freaking cute. first day completed- but it was EXHAUSTING! 8 and a half hours of entertaining children is not as easy as people think it is. Can’t even imagine going back tomorrow, but so excited to see they’re little adorable faces :-) And...
