August 2010
exhausted at a standstill.
This may just be the lowest of the low. My parents and I got into a huge blowout fight- mainly my mom and me and it was bad, really really bad. I came to the cape because I knew we needed to do a lot of work on repairing our relationship, and it would never happen unless we were physically together. We had the best day. I spent time with my dad alone and with my mom alone, and we all had the most...
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Everything is fucked. I’m so sick and tired of waking up alone and going to be alone, and being home alone all the time. My parents decided, without telling me until they were packing their bags, that they were going to live in the cape for the second half of summer. My moms not even going to be around for my 20th birthday when she could really just drive and spend time with me. Maybe its...
I'm growing up.
Two monumental things in my life happened today (or monumental according to me)
1. I messaged the girl who has been sleeping with my ex, first love of years. I found a picture of my ex- a great picture of him at basic training looking up and smiling, and I messaged her with the link to the picture, told her she was really strong for being able to go through this and wait for him. She was so...
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How do you explain to anybody how much you miss a person that you’ve never even met before? I miss my birth mom Shelley so much lately, so much more than I can even put into words. I don’t know why these feelings are so strong right now. I’m overwhelmed because this will be a constant my whole life- I don’t feel like I’ll ever find peace inside me over this, because...
“…You say hello, inside I’m screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind...”
– Mixtape, Butch Walker. (via kari-shma)
